Georgetown University Tree Lighting, Dec. 2, 2011
Last night, a couple of my closest post-bacc friends and I gathered in Georgetown’s main quad to listen to carols, drink hot cocoa, and watch the annual tree lighting on campus. It was fun and festive, and for the first time this year, I felt glimmers of the holiday spirit.
I’m a big sucker for the holidays, but this is a strange season: for all of its charms, DC just isn’t home to me yet, and its hard to watch the Christmas season go by without Madison Avenue decorations, the skaters at Rockefeller Center, and, most of all, the cozy comfort of my Mom’s apartment around the corner. Beyond that, life outside this blog has been a little tougher than I tend to let on: work is never-ending, and no matter how much time, effort, blood, sweat, and tears I put into my post-bacc, I continue to struggle. At times, I feel as though nothing I do matters in these classes, and that’s a new and uniquely frustrating experience for me academically (I encountered challenging classes as an undergrad, but in those cases hard work and concentration always yielded improvement).
In any case, I spend a lot of time silencing doubts lately—about school, about med school, about my choice to change careers so dramatically—and this was one of the harder weeks.
Until last night, that is. At some point between the tree lighting, dinner with Valerie (recap to come!), and early morning yoga with Katie, the clouds lifted, and I realized that I’ve found a family here in DC.
I never worked very hard at finding a “family” in college—I made great friends, but I also had the comforts of my home town and childhood friends all around me. I didn’t need community the way kids from out of town seemed to. Now, as I battle this challenging program in a new city, I understand why community and school spirit matter so much to so many students. I’m pretty sure that I’ll survive my post-bacc, but even if I don’t, it will feel worth it to have made the friends I’ve made in the last six months.
On that note, it’s time to hit the books again. Tomorrow, a restaurant recap!